Mother's Day, May 10, 2009

I had a wonderful Mother's Day

Michael's clock went off around 6:00 AM to remind him that was Mother's Day So, I woke up with not a pleasing alarm very close to my pillow When Michael told me Happy Mother's Day, I just wished that I could go back to sleep again. But it wasn't really easy .... Then I stayed in bed until before 8:00 AM and enjoyed it.

When I was measuring my blood sugar, the boys came out of their room holding a card each and telling me : Surprise ! They were so excited about the cards that couldn't give them to me. They started to take the cards out of the envelops and started reading to me : Happy Mother's Day !

Michael told me that it had taken more than 10 minutes for them to pick the cards! So, I think they put a lot of thoughts into it

The best part was when I was talking on the phone with my sister in the bedroom, Relic came in with a grilled cheese sandwich that HE had made for me. It was the cutest thing. I wish I had a picture of it, but it tasted so good that I couldn't stop eating it Michael said that Relic made the sandwich himself and listened to Michael carefully how to make it

Michael helped me to put some stuff in the basement and it was very good because that's what really needed to be done.

After dinner, we went to Forest River Park and had a very good time.

So, I really had a good day. Much better than what I had expected

Entry for April 26, 2009

After some very busy days, here I am again !

We had the boys' 3rd birthday party in a beautiful park in Danvers MA. A lot of friends came and we all enjoyed the very beautiful and sunny day together. The boys had a lot of fun playing outside with their friends, opening their presents. River had picked Dora cake and Relic had picked Thomas cake. They both were very happy with their cakes, however neither of them ate much. It was a little windy for lighting the candles but we still sang happy birthday song for them.

I can't believe that my sons are 3 now ! But I do believe that in just a blink of eyes they will be really big boys and will move out ! But until then, let me enjoy of watching them grow up ....

I had a very hard time last week, being prepared for the boys party when four of us were sick. But in every single minute I was thankful for what I have . I do feel overwhelmed sometimes, but I always feel happy. I do have two very happy and smart sons.They are only three but they appreciate every little love they get. They are only three but they can read ! I can't be enough thankful for what I have

Entry for April 13, 2009

I just have signed up for facebook. It seems like an interesting website. But it has a big problem at least for me .... It is good that I can know about my family and friends and how they are doing every day but it doesn't give me some time to be with myself and think. I love writing but I don't like sharing my private moments of life with everybody. facebook seems like living with all of friends under a roof ! I don't feel very comfortable to be in my pajamas in front of everybody And as busy as I am I rarely get time to dress up ....

Anyway, we have been planning the boys' birthday party for a while and the boys are getting involved with the planing more and more. They have told us what they want for presents and also what kind of cake each one of them wants ! Yes, I think this year we will have to have one cake for each one of them !

We all had a beautiful Easter. The boys enjoyed egg hunting but expected the Easter bunny to be more generous

They are going to bed every night by themselves and don't need me to stay in their room with them.

We are looking into finding a preschool for them and planing to let them go for 3 days a week for 3 hours a day. I am sure the separation will be more tough on me than them!

Entry for March 27, 2009

It's been long ....

I can't live without writing. I can't hide my feeling and writing has always helped me go through hard stages of my life. When i don't get time to write, I really miss it. A lot of nights when I go to bed, I think of what I would write about my day and there is always something : not always a good thing, but something !

We did have a long winter. It was really annoying. Thankfully we went to Texas for 17 days and escaped from the cold for a little while. However it seems like the winter is back .... We went for a walk today and it was very windy and we all felt cold.

We welcomed the Spring and Iranian New Year, when we were in Texas with my sister and her husband. We all had a wonderful time there which made it hard for all of us to leave. But still, I was happy when we were back. I think something inside me was missing our home.

Today we went for the boys' preschool screening. It was very exciting but a little sad seeing that they are almost three now ! It feels like it was just yesterday that I was pregnant !

Entry for February 27, 2009

Entry for February 13, 2009

Tonight will be exactly one week after the boys started going to bed alone. It was very hard for Relic the first few times. But now, they both are very fine with it. I still take them for brushing their teeth ( and they never miss it ) and then having them ready for bed, putting them in their pajamas and giving them the two engines to take in bed with them. Relic always wants to take Gordon and Thomas. But River chooses different engines every once in a while. I hold them one by one for a few minutes, talking with them and counting with them. then I put them in bed kissing them good night. I think they both are very proud of that. They mention every night that they are big boys and they go to bed there and Mommy goes to bed in the other room.

It is nice to have some time for me sitting and checking email, writing or watching TV with Michael. I am very proud of my sons and how they understand everything that they are supposed to do.

These days I am trying to plan their third birthday party. We will probably have about 50 guests. I have already planned all the fun things that we want to do for the party and also what we want to get for the guests to eat and drink. But the place is still on hold. I hope we can decide before we go for our 17 days trip to Texas.

Big Boys! February 07, 2009

Relic and River are 33 months, but still need me to stay in their bedroom until they go to sleep. Maybe that's not quiet true... Maybe I should say that I still need to stay in their bedroom until they go to sleep.I enjoy watching them sleeping, listening to their breaths and enjoying the innocent smell of their room. Yes, that's true. I do know that I need them more than they need me. I do get tired a lot of times, running around, cleaning up, thinking about what to cook and plan fun events for them. But I do have fun spending time with them. I have never been so happy in my entire life and not so tired either. That's funny. Isn't it ?

I hold the boys for 2-3 minutes before I put them in bed. I talk with them about what we have done through the day, telling them how proud I am to think about what they have learned, and asking them to understand if I am not always very patient with them, that's because I get tired.... Then I go through what we are going to do a day after. Then we count to ten together and kissing good night.

Relic has been crying last night, today before his nap and tonight. He wanted me to stay and 'sit over there' pointing to the glider in their room. But I didn't listen and left. I am not sure if Relic understands how much it was hard for me to hear him crying but I hope one day he understands that I did it because I want him to start learning to be independent.

Yes, they are almost big boys now...