Entry for May 05, 2008

aghaye Aminpour aziz, salam

delam baraye hameye letafate roohetoon tang shode. delam baraye roozai ke ba hosele mineshastin va be hameye harfa va dard e delaye man goosh mikardin tang shode. vaghti fekr mikonam ke dige kasi ro nadaram ke ba etemade kamel azash komak bekham az ghose mikham beterekam. aghaye Aminpour, in rooza az hamishe bishtar be shoma niaz daram. bozorg kardane bacheham pichidast, gahi khaste misham va kheyli vaghta be bon bast miresam. mikham ba shoma va faghat shoma harf bezanam. shoma tanha kasi hastin ke man mitoonam ba aramesh hameye do deliham ro dar mioon bezaram. bazi rooza ehsas mikonam dige taghat nadaram. fekr mikonam daram divoone misham. mikham bahatoon harf bezanam. yadame ye bar behetoon goftam delam misooze ke Salman Harati zende nist ke sheraye taze bege va shoma goftin khob to az ghole Salman begoo. emrooz fekr mikardam age shoma boodin mikhastin man hesam ro benevisam va man fekr kardam benevisam ke cheghadr delam baratoon tang shode. benevisam va beporsam chera ma ro tanha gozashtin ? aghaye aminpour ? mikham bahatoon harf bezanam ....

Entry for April 21, 2008

River and Relic turned TWO !

The last two years have been the most challenging but amazing years of my life. I am always thankful to be the mother of these two wonderful boys

Their birthday party went great. We all had a great time and the boys really enjoyed the company of their friends

Entry for April 13, 2008

We are planning a big birthday party for Relic and River. They are going to turn 2 next week. Almost 30 of their friends with their parents are coming to the party so we are going to have almost 70 guests. Yes, I know. For being two , 30 friends is too much, but Relic and River are really popular and have a lot of friends.

It is really exciting to plan the party. I hope it is going to be a joyful party for everyone

Entry for April 11, 2008

Today is Michael's last day of work in TechTarget. We both have been confused about how we feel about him leaving this job and going to work in another place. Thankfully Michael is leaving TechTarget for a better opportunity, but still it is kind of sad. I do remember the day that he got a phone call about him going to start the job there. I remember how we were excited about it. That night, we had a little celebration making a big dinner. We didn't have the boys then so we did have time to eat like people

Michael has worked almost three years for TechTarget and has had very special days there. He had a very caring boss which was good enough to understand how Michael cared about his job and if he had problems taking care of his pregnant wife and after that his sons, sometimes.

Michael is very smart and loves his job as a computer engineer and always looks for a more challenging situation so I know he might want to leave the jobs but as I told him last night, we will always remember the days that he worked in TechTarget because those days were the very special days of our life together

Entry for April 06, 2008

Sometimes I feel like I am living in my own world, not caring what is out there and after that I feel guilty. You know ? At a time, I couldn't enjoy anything for myself just because I thought it was silly to enjoy little things, it would be selfish to be happy if there was anybody sad out there. Now I think I was sick at that time and I know it wasn't my fault to feel like that. I had been raised during war and had seen people die and of course the theme of country was the angel of death ! Yes, I remember that wearing gray socks was forbidden at school because gray was kind of white and white could attract men So, we had to wear just navy, dark brown and black ! And that's another reason for me to hate dark colors now ... Anyway, we were forced to not think of anything happy or exciting. At that time, I thought to never have a child, because I thought it wouldn't be fair to have a child if there was a child out there who didn't have anybody as family.....

But now, I think if I can't do anything to change the world, why do I have to ruin my own world ? I enjoy my sons' happiness. I laugh with them when they laugh and feel like the luckiest woman in the world when I go for a little walk with my husband holding our sons' little hands. This is my world now, simple but beautiful and I am not going to exchange it with anything else.

Entry for March 31, 2008

It's been so long after that last time that I had a little time to write. Not because I haven't had anything exciting and special in my life to write about but because I have been busier than other days.

We had a wonderful trip to Texas, visiting my sister and her husband. We all had a great time there, but River and Relic enjoyed it the most. My sister, Badri loves children and her husband is a very patient and kind man. River and Relic had a lot of fun playing with their aunt and listening to their uncle ready books to them.

We started our new Iranian year with my sister and her husband in Humble, TX. Last year we started our new Iranian year at my mother's with her and my other sister's familyin Tehran, Iran. I do feel lucky that my children are loved very much and are always surrounded by love and care. There is nothing better than this for a mother to feel. I know that my children appreciate the love and care that they feel and it makes me feel really good, because I don't want them to think that they are loved just because they deserve it. I want them to care , respect and appreciate what ever they get. I am their mother and seeing them happy makes me happy, so I don't need them to be thankful for what I do for them . But I think when you learn to be thankful you will enjoy and see what you are given better.

Entry for March 16, 2008