River on 4th of July , July 05, 2008

River picked the red B ( a symbol for Boston Baseball team ) for his face himself. He was sitting very still and did surprise the painter lady with how patient he was sitting on his Daddy's lap for the B to be painted on his face.

Relic in 4th of July, July 05, 2008

Relic was very anxius for having the painting on his face. He did pick the flag for his face and was really happy with it

A Happy 4th of July :) July 05, 2008

Entry for July 03, 2008

These days, I am having a tough time telling NO to my sons. It is not like I have decided to not spoil them any more. Because I don't believe if I have been spoiling them. I believe that they are very smart boys who want to discover everything around them, but they also are very caring boys. They do a very good job sharing their toys with other children when we go to playgrounds and also, when they see that I am not happy with they have been doing, they stop doing it, come and want to give me a hug. But they just need to stop and think what the situation is and if their mother is happy with what that they are doing. And this, doesn't happen often .... It is just because they are very smart and active 2 year old boys. We have to understand that!

They do know all the lower case and upper case English alphabet, they can count to 14 and sometimes more and recognize them. They know 11 colors : red, green, blue, yellow, orange, black, white, brown, pink, purple and gray . But because they are smart, we should not expect them to act like adults. They are just 26 months ! We should give them right to climb up the furniture, jump and many other things that adults don't do. Maybe I couldn't understand this when I didn't have children, but now I know how different children's world can be. And I believe it is more different than ours especially if they are smart and active children.

I don't know... Sometimes I think like maybe I am spoiling my sons to let them do a lot of things and feel really bad when others want to stop them ( especially if it makes my sons feel embarrassed ) But I believe my there is always a good way to stop my sons from doing things that we don't want them to do. It is not like I think my sons can go and do what ever they want, but I really feel bad if adults stop my sons not caring about how these little guys are going to feel.

When 3 months ago we were going to see my sister and her husband in Texas for 10 days, I was worried ... Knowing how neat and clean my sister is ( Oh! she used to be hypersensitive about cleaning everything ) I was worried if she would feel bad about my sons touching or possibly breaking the new things in her new house and that's why I had wanted to talk with her before we bought the ticket. We saw how patient and kind her husband and her were to my children during our long visit.

I know there are things that I need to change about my children. Because they are growing up. I am trying to do that. I have already started to put them in bed, without me lying down with them. I just sit on a glider in their bedroom, caressing their little feet sometimes. Today I started to take away their blankets during the day. They are very attached to their blankets was really hard for them. But I tried to make them busy with books and games. They do handle changes very well and I am really proud of them.

Entry for June 24, 2008

What a crazy month! When I look back , I feel like I am doing nothing but I am busy every single hour!

Last month we had the 50th anniversary of our North Shore Mothers of Multiples club and it was really nice. I got to meet the founder of the club. I did have a wonderful time with other mothers but couldn't stay long at the party. I did miss my family and needed to come back home to put my sons in bed.

Last weekend, we went to Maine to be in Kyle's graduation party. We stayed at their place over night and went to see some friends of Michael the morning after.

I think there were much more that we did last month, but I am too tired to think of them right now.

Entry for May 30, 2008

In the last weeks, it has been many times that I have needed to sit and write, but when ever I get a little time for writing, I find another thing which needs to be done .... Sometimes I feel like I am just turning around myself, doing nothing, learning nothing ....

Yes, I haven't worked as a structural engineer for more than three years. And being away from the career that I love makes me feel useless sometimes. I do get tired sometimes, very tired. Especially if I am sick, it is really hard to deal with my very active, hungry for learning sons. I am trying my best to do what ever I can for my sons, but still ....

Lat week, when the boys just started to wake up after their nap, it started to rain very hard and I remembered that I had left the car's windows open ! Michael is very sensitive about his car's seats not getting wet sometimes.(Considering how the gas price is going up, it is wise to use his car and not mine because Michael's car is hybrid ) So I had to run to close the windows fast. I just took the key and left the house not closing the door's house behind me. I had parked the car cross street and when I was running there, I heard Relic crying and following me, bare feet in the street, in the rain. I just ran back to hold him and take with me to the car. When I closed the car windows, holding Relic in my arms, just heard River crying and running to us bare feet. I was just lucky to get him before he ran into street which was more dangerous with the heavy rain and the cars going fast. Three of us were all wet, and the boys were holding me tightly coming back home. River wasn't feeling good emotionally the rest of the day. He wanted me to hold him and kiss him all the time. I am just hoping the this memory is not going to turn to a nightmare for my sons for the rest of their lives.

Yes, it is really hard to raise two very active boys at the same time. But it is worth it. I do have the most beautiful moments as a mother of twins.

Just a few days ago, Michael and I were sitting in the kitchen having some snack with each other. Relic was running back and forth the long side of kitchen and laughing. River was in the living room then playing with some toys and couldn't see what was making his brother so happy. He could hear him laughing so came to the kitchen to see what was going on. Relic ran to his brother, telling him something just in few syllables and just by that, River knew what to do. He started to run with his brother and laughing.

We went to Richardson's' farm on memorial day , getting some ice cream and we thought to let the boys go for golf there. They both were very good for just being two years old. Learned a lot and enjoyed it. They also enjoyed watching the cows....

Entry for May 09, 2008

Yes ! Relic and River are big boys now ! They sit at table to eat with us and they really like it, so do we. And also, they are not coming to our bed in the middle of night any more.

God knows how hard it was for me to close their bedroom door and let them cry when they wanted to come to cuddle with me in the middle of night. I do know, I am the one who needs them more than they need me. They have learned to be in their bed, but I still wake up in the middle of night missing their warm innocent bodies. Sometimes I go to watch them, sometimes I even go to kiss their foreheads when they are sleeping ....

Yes, they are growing up faster than I expect not asking if I am ready....