Not a long way to go, April 20, 2006

We are waiting for our babies to come. Everyday will be beautiful for them to be born :

Today is birthday of Michael's grandmother. She was a very special woman, leaving Michael all the good memories and love. I still feel sorry that I could never meet her. Michael thinks she would love me. Sometimes I dream of hugging her and telling her how much I appreciate all the love that she has given to Michael.

Tomorrow will be the beginning of my favorite month in Iranian calender.

April 22, is the day that I had always wished to be my "son" 's birthday from when I was 16.

April 23, is the day that my doctor will be able to perform the surgery and it is what I want. I trust her caring hands to hold my babies for the first time.

Let's see when the boys want to be born. But for sure, they will give me all the love that a mother can get.

So far so good, April 19, 2006

I am spending my last days of pregnancy with joy. The beautiful spring of New England is all around us and I believe it is the most beautiful spring of my life. Everything looks like blooming, everything is fresh and alive and my two little boys are getting ready to be born.

Everything has been fine with my health and my boys' health. I hope the rest goes as well. Of course I have some contractions once in a while, but it is very usual and nothing compare to what other women feel. My doctor believes I have good muscle tune and that's the reason of not having many contractions even a few days before giving birth to TWINS.

I had my last ultrasound yesterday and saw the doctor who was covering for my OB/GYN. She was really surprised how everything has gone well with my pregnancy. I have been working hard to control the problems around my pregnancy, but I couldn't do it if my husband, his family, my siblings, my mother and our friends were not supporting me emotionally.

There is almost no reason to worry about my babies, but still, I am a mother. I will keep worrying for my babies whole my life, that's what make my babies special for me.  But to be honest, more than how I am worried for their health, I worry if they will be raised well. I am sure Michael and I will do our best to make it happen, but the problem is that, sometimes we may not know what is the best. I certainly believe that we will both give our life to make sure they are going to be raised well. That's what makes us parents.

 

My last meeting with mothers of multiples, being pregnant, April 12, 2006

It was the last meeting that I went being pregnant, when for sure, I had the biggest belly

I had pretty good time with all the mothers. They were making some cards for mother's day from their twins to the grandmothers with the twins' pictures. I thought it wouldn't be fun to make those cards with ultrasound pictures and of course I didn't have any real picture of twins yet.

Everybody was surprised how I was doing well just 11 days before giving birth. They were all amazed that I had driven myself to the meeting, when my boys have been really big. Of course, every time that I want to drive, I have to move the seat a little further.

I told them that I have cooked some meals and have in freezer already for when I need and they thought I was very organized to do that, but still offered me to call them when ever I need a meal,  so they would cook and bring to my house. It is what they always do for the new moms and of course, I will be happy to do that when I can for others.

They even had a gift for my twins  which made me really happy. ( Wow! our twins' dresser has been already filled with all the cute little outfits. I guess I have to save some of them for others to use )

I think I will not be able to go to the next meeting, however they were all insisting that I go to the twins' yard sale with my babies which will be just 6 days after giving birth, because they all wanted to see my babies. Coming back home, I talked with Michael about that and he thought it might not be good for our babies to go out so soon.

The doctor visit, April 10, 2006

I went to see my OB/GYN for the last time before she leaves for her spring vacation. I had an ultrasound before and everything went well. The boys were active ( surprising ?  ) and the doctor thought they are going to have thick and long hair. I was really excited to hear that. i wish i could call Michael then, but I had forgotten to take my cell phone with me, so I had to wait until noon.

My doctor thought everything was really good about my health and the twins'. But I told her how worried I am if the boys want to be born before she comes back. She hugged me and told that every other doctor in the hospital would be good. I already knew that, because I am going to give birth in Brigham and Women's Hospital. But still, I do feel better if my own doctor can do the surgery for me.

The boys have been moving around which is really strange in their age and size and how small I am. It is why my doctor still has hope ( even very little ) for me to give natural birth. I don't mind about Cesarean, what I do care about is, my boys being born as healthy as possible.

Coming back home, we went to the ice cream shop and I enjoyed as every day. Then I called my sister, giving her all the report about the boys.

In the evening our neighbor came to see us with a big bag of gifts for our boys. She had made two cute blankets and a pillow and got other cute things for the boys.  It really make my heart warm to see how people around us are excited about our twins.

A BIG FAT woman in Ice-cream shop, April , 2006

A bigger size of picture ?

Busy days, April 07, 2006

We have had very busy days, dealing with Iranian new year, the last shopping for our babies, cleaning up, seeing doctors, taking some pregnancy pictures, sewing and ....

The last day of Norouz we went to Forest river to have our lunch there as an Iranian tradition to eat out. I threw our Sabzeh away into the ocean, wishing all the pain and sadness of our families and friends go away. A bigger size picture ?

I was very excited when I saw that the Ice-Cream shop in our street has been opened after the long winter that I was craving for their ice-cream. And we have been having ice-cream almost every day. yummm!

So, we did have busy days but not without joy. The closer that we get to my due date, we get more excited about having two babies of our own with us, sharing the love and happiness of our life with them.