Yesterday which was a hot day, I decided to take the boys to Chunk E. Cheese's to let them have a little fun in a place which they had never been to. It could be a good place for all of us to enjoy if I had somebody else with me to keep an eye on one of the boys, but Michael had to work from work and couldn't be with us.
When we were there, the boys were running around enjoying the games but it was really hard for me to see both of them in different areas at the same time and I had all the bad imaginations of the show Law & Order in my mind, thinking about my boys getting kidnapped or being abused. I got so scared that couldn't stay there longer and I decided to take the boys and leave however they didn't want it and were crying when I was buckling them in their stroller. When I was buckling Relic in his car seat River escaped from stroller and ran away. I left Relic alone in the car not being strapped and went to catch River. When we went back to the car, Relic had moved to the trunk for back seats and ere playing with the balls that they had there. River saw him and didn't let me buckle him. He wanted to go to have fun in the trunk with his brother. I was feeling weak and weak every second and it was hot in the car. I just closed the door and sat in the back seat crying and counting my boys 1,2 to be sure if they both were with me. My blood sugar was dropping low but at that time I didn't know that. I just felt that there was ssometing wrong and my boys were in danger. I tried to take the cell phone outyof my bag to call Michael and ask for help, but River who had seen me crying was feeling bad took the phone away and wanted me to hold him . By that time Relic had moved to front seat starting to horn and that's how people paid attention to us in the car. I remember two men opened the door and asked if I was okay. They called 911 and after a few minutes I was in the ambulance and my boys in fire truck or police car holding the bears that policemen gave to them. I knew that my boys were in a safe place but was worried. I needed to see them and that's when the policemen brought my babies to see me. Their hair was all wet from sweating, their faces all red because of heat and they were worried if I wasn't fine .... Michael came after a few minutes and had the boys in his arms, where I felt could be the safest place in the world for them....
We all did have a very tough day. The boys felt good after seeing me being okay. Michael was fine when he saw that he took care of everything, but going to bed I was thinking if my boys would ever trust me taking care of them ....
AWWE BIG HUGS TO YOU BITA......Sometimes as women we take for granted the fact that being a mommy is one of the HARDEST jobs in the world. We all have our good days, our bad days. Your boys love you unconditionally and always will. I know how much you love your boys and remember u ARE DOING A GREAT JOB.... your one of the best mommies i know and it shows in ur little ones faces..... I feel for ya.
ReplyDeleteWow, Bita, that was a scary story. It is good that the people in Salem have enough sense to recognize an emergency when they see one, and enough care about their fellow man to do something about it. Somehow it seems to me exactly what I would have expected of the boys, River wanting you to hold him while Relic wants to blow the horn (and probably drive the car, you need to be sure to keep the keys where he can't get them!) The last time Fay had a low blood sugar episode was a week before she went in the hospital the last time. I hope you recovered without further hospital time. God bless you.
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