So much things to do, February 23, 2006

There are a lot of things that I have to do, to get prepared before my babies are born : cooking a lot of meals and freezing them, preparing the babies bedroom and clothes, packing for hospital .... I still have 8-9 weeks, but who knows ? Maybe the boys want to be born sooner. I hope not, because I do need the time to get ready, otherwise I will have to run all the time ....

Last night I just remembered that I need to do spring cleaning too, before Iranian new year, which will be March 21st. I had thought to do it before my mother and sister come, but because they could not come, I forgot what I had planned to do. Right now, I don't think if I have time, energy and feeling to do that any more. I guess I will be satisfied to do just a simple cleaning. Thankfully, this year I don't need to make new curtains which I had done in last two springs.

I guess I am not handling the situation very well, because I make myself too tired until I can't move any more, and then I go to bed with all the pain, sometimes crying. I handle it better when Michael is at home, he reminds me to take a break and he helps me when he can, but otherwise, I do feel crazy. It is why my psychiatrist suggested me to read the book ' The boy who couldn't stop washing' , which I haven't had time to read much. But Charlie is right, my babies need me more to spend time with them not to spend time for them. He often finds the way to make me calm down, that's why I believe he is a very good friend for me and even for my boys. He cares about us and tries to help when ever he can, that's why I am sitting and writing now, because he left a message for me and told me to take a break, sit and write when I get his message. Thank you Charlie, from three of us!   &