A trip to Boston, July 25, 2006

It was really hard to pick one of the boys to take with me to Boston, when I was going to see my doctors there. But finally Relic was picked by chance.

He always liked train when I was pregnant and it was his first trip by train when he could see through window ( and he really enjoyed it ). Everyone in the train loved him and wanted to talk with him. I did feel good about it because I had thought that people like my boys just because they are twins, but I could see how they can be lovable individually.

Here is a picture of us coming back from Boston.

What if everything is just a dream? July 21, 2006

I had a weird dream  :

I was in my mother's home, living with her and a sister. Exactly like the old days, having nothing, no right ,  trying to let them have what ever they wanted, just to help them feel better .... Oh, my God ! I even don't want to think about it!

I was holding an outfit of Relic Rastak which says 'Mommy's Little Boy ' very tightly and crying because everything that I have right now was just a dream !

 

I do get tired sometimes, not having enough time to rest. But it doesn't mean that I am not happy. Nothing can make me happier than having my sons in my arms and feeding them, when their beautiful eyes are getting sleepy and I can have all of my wishes on their beautiful pink eyelids and see them smile.

If I am living a dream, I don't want to wake up, because this is the sweetest dream that I have ever had!  

July 13, 2006

I am getting tired more and more every day. The only thing that can help me to not give up is the love that I have for my babies.  They are getting more beautiful every day but the thing that keeps me to stay loving them is not their beauty. They have all of my heart by the look in their eyes ( which I still know their color ).

I go to sleep by hearing their swings moving, I run by their cry and I live by their smile. They are whole my life. I have never ever loved anybody like that. I feel they are the most beautiful things on the earth, and I feel very proud to be their mother, even if I am really exhausted.

July 04, 2006

 We had a great time with Michael's family in Kennebunk where Jay and Jeanne's beautiful house is located.

Here is a picture of not all of us there.